Wednesday, May 30, 2012

One Last Hurdle

This post won't be long at all.  In fact, I'm going to get straight to the point...NOW! lol.  I have one last hurdle to complete before I am OFFICIALLY a medical student and it's scaring the crap out of me. I've already been accepted but I need to complete my masters program.  Currently, I am working on my practicum and my capstone paper, which are both requirements for my degree.  If I don't finish either of these guess who won't be going to med school.  That's right...this woman (as I point to myself) :(

If you've read some of my previous post you'll see that I tell others to be confident in themselves.  I feel that this will either determine whether you fail or succeed.  It's no secret that I've struggled to to maintain an educational swagger if you will.  I'm always worried about whether I'll fail or if I am even capable.  I couldn't tell you where these feeling stem from.  One would think that I've failed classes or something, but I've done nothing of the sort.  More than likely they originate from my previous battles with doing well on standardized exams.  I'll admit that I can be pretty dramatic when it comes to certain things and taking exams is one of them.  Either I felt I wasn't prepared enough or I'd focus on the fact that failing meant two things.  One, I was a failure.  Two, my life would be over.  See, pretty dramatic right.

Despite the outcome of these exams everything has turned out all right.  I try to remember this as I advance more in my educational career.  But part of me always feels like I am not doing enough or that I'll fail and everyone will know it.  Ugh, I've got to get over these things once and for all.  Well that was my rant for tonight.  Hope everyone is having a great day!